sculpture park

I finally did another photoshoot! This one was to get some senior pics of Hollyann class of '10. Its so weird saying that instead of '09. Anyway i'll try to put a slideshow on my photography blog but for now heres one of them. This one I thought was cute. She was taking a pic of her reflection so I had to take a pic of her! lol go take a look at my other blog. http://cute-photography.blogspot.com/

Summer

Dear blogger,

I definitiley have neglected you. I cant believe this summer is coming to an end. It seems like just yesterday I was on the beach with my classmates in Florida worried about coming back and graduating. Now im stuck here wondering what life is gonna be like after this summer. I wish I made more of my summer, spent more time with my friends and done something worthwhile.. but maybe its a good thing that I just took it easy. What if this is my last real summer. I cant believe how fast time went. It feels like I have to grow up over night. Maybe Im just overexaggerating but Im sure a lot of ppl feel the same way. I am excited tho. I get to go back to NY. I mean that itself is so exciting but i still cant help but be stressed. Well right now I have just over 3 weeks left in MO. Its gonna be weird not being here. I wish everything could be so much easier. Its weird thinking that there are ppl here that I may never see again. Some of these ppl even being ones that were on the senior trip with me, the same ppl that threw their caps with me at graduation. I hope this isnt true. They say life is short but why do teenage years feel like they are super short.

WEll

"Why does love always feel like a battlefield" Jordin Sparks "Its better to say to much than to never say what you need to say" John Mayer

I know that I said my blogs were gonna be about daily inspirations. Well, songs count right???

Anyway, I like posting songs that have words that describe whats on my mind.

I know my blogs have been very redundant but i guess thats because my thoughts have been that way..

Ordinary Day

Ordinary Day -Nick Lachey

I wish I could tell you
The things I never got the chance to
I wish I was with you now
To see you smile again
I wish we had more time
But time goes by so fast
The moment comes and
Then the moment passes by
In the blink of an eye
And If I had one wish
I wouldn’t ask for money
I wouldn’t ask for fame
I wouldn’t ask for the power to
Make this world change
If I could have one thing
That one thing that I would chose
Is one more ordinary day with you
With you
I wish I could see you
And be there where my arms could reach you
I wish I could let you know
How much you touch my life
Maybe a little time is all the time we get
The Words we long to say are words that go unsaid
You can go back again
But if I had one wish
I Wouldn’t ask for money
I wouldn’t ask for fame
I wouldn’t ask for the power to
Make this world change
If I could have one thing
That one thing that I would chose
Is one more ordinary day
With you
I wish we had more time
Time goes by so fast
The moment comes and
Then the moment passes by
In the blink of an eye
But if I had one wish
I Wouldn’t ask for money
I wouldn’t ask for fame
I wouldn’t ask for the power to
Make this world change, no
If I could have one thing
That one thing that I would chose
Is one more ordinary day
Just one more ordinary day with you
With you

BLOG

SO I started writing my blogs about school and the countdown till the last day. Well now school is out and im moving on from high school, therefore, im starting a new chapter with my blogging. Instead of writing about all the things that happened throughout my day that pissed me off or how i just wanted to get out of school, my blog is now gonna be about daily lessons and maybe life inspirations.

First of all, I think I need to start this off with this verse that is very reassuring.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." This means a lot because it means that our future is in God's hands.

Anyway, today I received a book as a graduation present. I read the first page and was already inspired. So, here is what it says.

"Never put yourself down. Doing so belittles your Creator. After all, He could have made you a billion different ways. He chose to make you just the way you are because He thought that was incredibly special. Remember, He never makes mistakes or does anything second best. You are a grade A, first class, top quality, deluxe model! 'You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderully made.' Psalm 139:13-14"

I know that it may sound like an oxymoron coming from someone who is going to beauty school, but trust me, beauty is WAY more than skin deep! =)

Sand In Your Shoes

Sand In Your Shoes -This Providence
I couldn't stand to be in that place
I was just about to leave, when I saw your face
You were laughing at me with your beautiful mouth
You said, 'You're looking miserable, do you want to get out?'
'That party was empty.'You said, and I agreed
A whole house full of people
But empty indeed
So we took to the beach in my rusty 510
Falling in love
We just didn't know it then
When you're only 18
And you got nothing to lose
And your living a dream
With the sand in your shoes
Falling in love is easy
It's easy to do
We fell in love with the windows rolled down
Chasing the sunset through another empty town
Your hair was a mess when you would dance on the coast
Your silhouette, like some heavenly ghost
When you're only 18
And you got nothing to lose
And your living a dream
With the sand in your shoes
Falling in love is easy
It's easy to do
Summer skies and warm colored sunsets
And a sunrise sneaking through my blinds
My demise, I just can't help it
It's suicide, looking in your pale blue eyes
Falling in love is easy to do
With the wind in your hair and the sand in your shoes
And though it may hurt to have your heart broken in two
That didn't stop me from falling for you
When you're dancing on the beach where the water meets your feet
And a cool ocean breeze is fighting the heat
Falling in love is easy
It's easy to do
It's easy to do
Oh I'm falling for you

Stop Sign

Stop Sign -Beyonce

I like to feel so high and
you feel good feeling low
I like my colours vivid and you paint your colours gold
I like to see the world and
you like your weekends home
but I've been tagging behind while you refused to go

Chorus:
'Cause you're such a burden
but you're the weight off of my shoulders
'Cause even though I'm hurting
it still feels like it's time I'm growing
When I thought that we'd grow up and grow together the same time
guess I passed you by at that old "Stop" sign
At that old "Stop" sign

You like to sleep all day
and I like my minutes long
I like trips to the movies
you watch TV all night long
I like to go out dancing and
you go out just to hang
And I've been right beside you losing me and doing the same

Chorus:
'Cause you're such a burden
but you're the weight off my shoulders
'Cause even though I'm hurting
it still feels like it's time I'm growing
When I thought that we'd grow up and grow together the same time
guess I passed you by at that old "Stop" sign
At that old "Stop" sign

I looked around and baby you were gone
Where did I lost you honey
I even slowed down thought you'd follow
But you took your own roads honey
'Cause I've been travelling travelling travelling
only to find that I'm making this trip alone
And I've been staying behind while you refused to go

Chorus:
'Cause you're such a burden
but you're the weight off my shoulders
'Cause even though I'm hurting
it still feels like it's time I'm growing
When I thought that we'd grow up and grow together the same time
guess I passed you by at that old "Stop" sign
At that old "Stop" sign

To Be With You

To Be With You -David Archuleta
I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall
I keep holding out for what I don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you
So here I am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you
Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way
Oh, to be with you
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you
Just to be with you, yeah
You

how do i explain

how do i explain what i feel and how i act???
The truth is I really do like you and the excuse for the way i act is that i really dont have one
its cause im quiet not because i dont want to talk to you
You mean so much to me and i dont want you to believe that im not interested because its not true.
I wish you would hang out with me sometime. It feels like something always comes up. I dont want anymore excuses I just want you. I hope you believe what I am saying. I wish I was better at showing my emotions. If I showed how I really felt, you would know that Im crazy about you. Im sorry I dont talk as much as I should and I dont show my emotions like I should. Like you say, you make me nervous.

Last Day of School

It was a good day.. but it was sad.

It finally sunk in that i wasnt gonna have class with any of my friends anymore.

At the end of the day we had senior chapel. It was fun and I think it was really moving to. I definitely dont take enough time out to realize all the good that God has done in my life. And than at the end.. the whole high school musical thing. That was fun! But than it hit me that I had no more classes in high school.

After that was Andrew's comedy show. Than went home to pack. Later was Josh's house and we watched Accepted where college is just one click away.. if only it was like that in the REAL world. Than headed home with Sarah where I got about three hours of sleep. Got up and went to school at 4 am. Headed to the bus where we had a 20hr trip to Florida =)

1 DAY left!!!

One more day of school!!
Thats crazzzzzy!
After that is the senior trip!
Today I had my english presentation 4th hr, a spanish final 5th hr and an interior design test 6th hr.
I still need finish sewing my dress and im not even supposed to be in sewing tomorrow because the seniors will be getting ready for chapel.
I cant write a whole lot cause i need to get to bed... and there is this huge misquito that keeps flyin around me =P

2 days left!!

TODAY is CINCO DE MAYO!!!

I was such a fat kid today! The seniors had a "fiesta" during lunch.
We had a party 5th hour en Espanol tres. I didnt really eat anythin though cause lunch was sooo filling. 6th hr we had candy (interior des) because we were reviewing for a test. 7th hr we had pizza.. just cause its sewing and we r attached to the foods room =P lol

So I had this interesting conversation with my brother today hahah
"isnt today the mexican holiday thing" -k "cinco de mayo?" -me "ya"-k "well it is the 5th of may"-me "than why are the mexicans workin on that house"-k hahahha
It was pretty funny.

Oh and i have to mention danny's performance on american idol... why did it sound like he was dieing at the end???

Today was a pretty stressful day. For one I got to school late *cough* cause of my brother haha
he makes me late all the time. It sucks.. the office hates me =P
I had a bible test which i didnt get to study for last night so it was hard to do but i did it durin first hr while mr wheeler went on about loading stuff on a computer.. who really knows. haha
My interior design project was due today. That took like all of last night to do. It SUCKED.
Tomorrow I have to give my english presentation and I have a spanish final.. which is gonna be really hard and I found out that I have an interior design test. Even though we turned in our finals today. But whatever. I still have to finish writing my bible paper and pack for florida and clean my room.

Sooo "i know u want me" reminds me of CINCO DE MAYO lol
1.2.3.4 uno dos tres cuatro
I know you want me you know I want cha
It was really funny cause it was on the radio yesterday and afterwards the dj was like its cinco de mayo menana and i was like no thats TOMORROW!!! and than i realized he said manana (pretend it has the squiggly line) lol... that was totally random

2 more days of school!!!!

dedicated to the 3 days left of school!!! lol

BREAKING FREE

Troy: We’re soarin’, flyin’ There’s not a star in heaven That we can’t reach
Gabriella:If we’re trying So we’re breaking free
Troy: You know the world can see us In a way that’s different than who we are
Gabriella: Creating space between us‘Til we’re separate hearts
Both: But your faith it gives me strength Strength to believe
Chorus #1
Troy: We’re breakin’ free
Gabriella: We’re soarin’
Troy: Flyin’
Both: There’s not a star in heaven That we can’t reach
Troy: If we’re trying
Both: Yeah, we’re breaking free
Troy: Oh, we’re breakin’ free
Gabriella: Ohhhh
Troy: Can you feel it building Like a wave the ocean just can’t control
Gabriella: Connected by a feeling Ohhh, in our very souls
Both: Rising ‘til it lifts us up So every one can see
Chorus #2
Troy: We’re breakin’ free
Gabriella: We’re soarin’
Troy: Flyin’
Both: There’s not a star in heaven That we can’t reach
Troy: If we’re trying Yeah we’re breaking free
Gabriella: Ohhhh runnin’
Troy: Climbin’ To get to that place
Both: To be all that we can be
Troy: Now’s the time
Both: So we’re breaking free
Troy: We’re breaking free
Gabriella: Ohhh , yeah
Troy: More than hope More than faith
Gabriella: This is true This is fate And together
Both: We see it comin’
Troy: More than you More than me
Gabriella: Not a want, but a need
Both: Both of us breakin’ free
Chorus #3
Gabriella: Soarin’
Troy: Flyin’
Both: There’s not a star in heaven That we can’t reach If we’re trying
Troy: Yeah we’re breaking free
Gabriella: Breaking free Were runnin’
Troy: Ohhhh, climbin’
Both: To get to the place To be all that we can be Now’s the time
Troy: Now’s the time
Gabriella: So we’re breaking free
Troy: Ohhh, we’re breaking free
Gabriella: Ohhhh
Both: You know the world can see usIn a way that’s different than who we are

4th day with 3 left!!!

Sooo i think i got behind a day cause after today there are only 3 left!!!

Anyway.. today was the first day of the last week of school! That's sooo weird to think about!

Tomorrow is cinco de mayo!! Cant wait!!

I finally finished my interior design project which is due tomorrow.

I have a bible test tomorrow that im not ready for!

I still have to finish writing my english presentation and my bible paper and study for my spanish final!!!

Im finally done with my graduation announcements!! but everything that could go wrong went wrong.. from the colors of my announcements bein different from everyone else's in the class to my pictures being printed the wrong size and the 2009 in the wrong color. My mom filled out some of them on the wrong envelopes and i forgot to put my name card thing in half of them =P but at least their done... pretty ghetto but at least they are done!!

I still have to do laundry and pack for florida and clean my room cause i have family comin in for my graduation.... so much to do =P

Here comes goodbye

Ok so it doesnt have to do with graduating but thats what it reminds me of =P


I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on the radio Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell She usually comes right in, now I can tell Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time Here comes the start of every sleepless night The first of every tear Im gonna cry Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side And violins would play here comes the bride Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time Here comes the start of every sleepless night The first of every tear Im gonna cry Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye Why does it have to go from good to gone? Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone All alone, but here comes goodbye Oh-oh-oh-oh Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time Here comes the start of every sleepless night The first of every tear I'm gonna cry Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

5 days!!

Friday was kind of a stressful day.. actually this whole weekend has been stressful.

Tuesday I have a bible test and an interior design project due.

Wednesday I have a spanish final and i have to give an english presentation

Thursday I have a bible paper due and its senior chapel. And my dress needs to be finished for sewing class. and than a party and than leave for florida at 4 am fri.

So this weekend has been crazzzy. I spent friday night at home doin hw and i didnt even get very far. I was a lil relieved when I found out my spanish final is wednesday. This whole time i thought it was tuesday and was freaking out cause i left my notes at school.

Anyway.. monday there will only be 4 days left of school thats sooo CRAZY!! I mean as much as I want to graduate its just weird thinking that this is my last week of high school.. and its not even a full week. Well I cant wait for Florida besides the fact that there are soo many rules and that it might be hard to have fun with all the chaperones but whatever its florida.. why am i complaining!!! =P

I get back the 13th and graduation is the 16th!!!

I cant believe it.. it seemed like this day would never come and for a long time i didnt want it to. but now its almost here and i cant wait but yet i know its gonna be sooo sad. I mean im not gonna see everyone's familiar faces every day. Its not gonna be the same when im not in high school but i still havent decided if that a bad thing lol

seis days!!!

Today not a whole lot happened. (I think I say that about almost every day lol)
Ummm in computers we took a test.. supposed to count as our final but it really wasnt =P
Bible did some hw. we pretty much got to chill the whole time.
Third hour is study hall. I read Eclipse the whole time. 0h and I signed some yearbooks.
Ingles we watched ppl do their presentations l0l
5th hr is espanol. we watched Peter Pan. I tried to sleep half the time... lol
Interior Des. I finished up hw and worked on my proj and signed more yearbooks.
7th hr is sewing where i worked on my dress... and didnt get very far.. actually u could say I got behind because now i need to alter it....
That was my day at a glance... l0l =D

7 days!

Soooo wednesday was school and than i went to sarah's house and chilled.
After that we went to her youth group. It was really good! I didnt realize quite how much I missed going to youth group. =)

8 DAYS!

TODAY i didnt do much.. i went to school, i had 2 tests.. that sucked lol =P oh i slept for like 4hrs haha. i actually did some hw.. didnt even finish it lol

9 days for the class of '09!!!

MONDAY there was '09 day left!

We had donuts to celebrate lol

Other than that I didnt do a whole lot.. OH i got eclipse from the library lol

11/10 days!

Thursday I dont even remember what I did lol =P

Friday i didnt do a whole lot.

Just another day of school and some shopping afterwards.

Oh and saurday I did a photoshoot of my brother!

Sunday i had a couple of senior pictures done for my

graduation announcements! =D

TO (you)

You may not know who you are.. most likely not.. you probably wont even read this.
BUT. You are really pissing me off. I thought you cared. You sounded as if you really liked me. Its one thing to say it and another to act like it. How come you spoke so sweetly when in reality you couldnt care less. I dont even seem to be on your mind anymore. Yet you know how to speak as if I am and as if you really miss me. Why do you make excuses? Why do you blow me off? If you dont care than tell me just dont act as if you do if you really dont. If you do still care than why dont you try? Why wont you tell me?

12 D a Y s ! i !

Today nothin really happened either haha
I finished my english paper.
I was assigned an interior design project and a 6 pg bible paper yesterday.. both count as finals though but still!!
I still need to come up with a 6 min presentation for my english paper.. hopefully we can use videos =P

13 DAYS!!

Monday nothin really happened... pretty typical day.
tried to work on my english paper but had no motivation haha
I guess this is just gonna be a really borin one cause I D K what to say!!

14 days!!

Friday was not a typical day.
There was like no one at school cause of a field trip.
The good part was my 5th hour Spanish 3 class (or what was left of us) got to go to bread co.
IT was pretty sweet to get out of school!
Oh and i went and saw 17 again!
That was sooo much fun!! and i got to go with my friend Emily!
It was really funny! =D

BLAHblahBlAh

Ahhh so tonight has been sooo frustrating!
It took me forever and a day just to write this stupid english paper!
I guess its a GOOD thing im goin to beauty school! haha

15 days!

Theres only 15 days left of school!

Today we had a brief discussion about senior chapel and its really starting to sink in that there are only 15 days left!

Theres only 1 photography club meeting left... thats so sad =(

Therefore this blog will be dedicated to photography!!!

16 days!

S0o0o today completely sucked.
I had detention.. wasnt bad but its just the fact that i got it in the first place and ive had a lot on my mind lately so i havent exactly been acting myself. 16 days left! hopefully i will make the best of them!! =D

17 days and counting!

So today was pretty sucky.
First day back at school after a 5 day weekend.
I have a rough draft due fri and im really good at procrastinating.
I got a detention for tardies....

Prom

April 4th was prom! It was at Whitmore Country Club. It was pretty fun and afterwards we went bowling. Me, hol, carrie, and amber decided to brave it out haha and bowl in our dresses! Than i spent the night at hol's...

18 days!!

After wednesday there are 18 days of school left!!

Wednesday was the last day of school before Easter Break! 5 day weekend!!!

I went to a Copeland concert and got to see This Providence!!!!!

20th day... with 19 left!!

Tuesday we had a picnic! If thats what u want to call it lol
It was kinda nasty outside so we just ate inside on top of picnic blankets lol

20 days

After Monday there were 20 days left therefore Tuesday was the 20th day!!
Didnt really do anythin on monday i dont think but whatever!

21 days

Sooo ive gotten way behind on blogging lately.
Friday I got my hair cut and didnt do much other than that lol =P

22 days!!

sooo after today there are 22 days left!
i got my hair dyed today
saturday is prom!!.. im actually excited even though i wasnt before but whatever
tomorrow im getting my hair cut and than getting the rest of the stuff that i need for prom... so it will be eventful i guess lol =D

i dyed my hair red... therefore the letters are red lol

23 days.. sorta

sooo yesterday i didnt blog but after yesterday there were 23 days left!!
yesterday kinda sucked.. but whatever im past the drama and in a better mood.

i guess this will just be a short one =D

24 Days

SOOO today kinda sucked

I have to admit yesterday was AMAZING not sittin through 7 hrs of hell (aka school) but was it worth dealin with the b!t(hy ppl in the office??? I hate the office (and no im not talking about the show). Today completely sucked.. not only did we get called to the offive for skipping school but the day seemed to last 10x longer than the typical day!!! At least there is only 3 days left this week, then prom, then easter break. 5 day weekend!!! Anyway enough with the complaining!! =P

25 Days

Today= 25 days of school left.

Luvin SKIP DAY!!!!

• SLEEPING IN


• CHILLIN


• UNPACKING FROM SPRING BREAK


• WORKING ON A PROJ.

= SO MUCH BETTER THAN SCHOOL!!

26 Days

26 DAYS!!

And the start of SPRING BREAK!

So today was the talent show. Its starting to sink in even more of how little time i have left at school. Its really sad thinking that im gonna be leaving soon. Anyway. Tomorrow im leaving for Florida!!! This means a 2 day trip in the car with my family... not so much fun. =P

27 days

So.. there are 27 days of school left. Its crazzy how fast time flies. Tomorrow is the last day before spring break! I cant wait... Its so surreal thinking that high school is about to end. As much as I want to graduate its still really sad and gonna be hard not spending every day with the same people. I love all of my friends.. you have been amazing these past three years. I dont really know what to write about but i thought it would be fun to capture every last day till graduation.

So0o0o0 Cute

girl: Do i ever cross ur mind

Boy: No

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Choose--me or ur life

Boy: my life

The girl runs away in shock and pain

and the boy runs after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.

The reason I don't want you is because I need you.

The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.

The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.

The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.

The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

28 days

So there are only 28 days of school left. Its a CRAZY thought. I must admit senioritis has definitely kicked in but it is still going to be sad to leave. I'm soo glad I have all of my AMAZING friends. I dont know what I would do without you. I know this year all the seniors have been striving to come together. I must admit that I havent been doing well with this. I mean I have made stronger friendships, new friendships but I have also lost a few and mended some. This is something I never expected to happen. I hate losing friends. I hope that these next 28 days will be a test of love. Something I heard in church this past sunday really stuck with me. He was talking about making your love stronger. He mentioned some quotes that were taken from kids. One of the quotes said, "If you want to have stronger love than why not start with the friends that you hate." Not that I hate anyone but there are definitely relationships that need to be mended. I hope these next 28 days will be a test and i will be able to have stronger love.

Bitter sweet

How can one day be so bitter sweet.. one day thats supposed to be full of joy and fun can also be full of so much pain. Tomorrow is gonna be a bittersweet day. A day full of so much loss and pain. Yet a day meant to be excited for. We'll see how it goes. Don't take anything for granted.. friends and family. They are worth so much. I dont know how life will be these next few months or how life will continue to move on but i know it will. Pain subsides and time will pass.